Dear Elsa, We grew up together and had many happy times along the way, you were big for a german shepherd and had very unique colouring which always got peoples attention..you loved attention and would even pose as soon as you saw the camera come out!..
At christmas you loved to wear big bows and tinsel on you then walk round the house proudly..it was so cute to see.. You loved your food and always guarded the biscuits from your brother Hektor, they were yours only!..
We played barbies together we played with my baby dolls together,anything girly and you loved it..even dressing up!!..
Not long before your tenth birthday your brother Hektor had heart failure it was so sudden and a huge shock, we all missed him and knew you did to, so when you lost a little weight we did not worry..
You were always a chunky girl so it was okay for you to loose a bit of weight but it did not seem to stop, we started to get worried when your hair started to thin out aswell..
It was almost six months after Hektor passed away when things took a turn for the worst, your tummy had swelled up i just knew exactly what it was i dont know how but i did..
and it was not good at all.. I sat up with you that night nursing you rubbing your tummy until you were fast asleep and i was drifting off to, there was a calmness around us a warmth it was like i could feel a warm energy through me to you as i rubbed your tummy,i dont know how long i sat with you for but we both fell into a deep sleep..
The next day you saw the vet, our fears were confirmed you had cancer.. the vet was amazd because the swelling had gone and you seemed so happy..nobody could explain why everything had reversed itself over night..
Over those next few days it was like you had a new lease of life like you were a puppy again, but after a few days you woke in the morning with a swollen tummy and struggling to walk, i helped mum to bring you downstairs and you went to sit in your fave place, you kept watching into where Hektor used to sit as though you were waiting..
We knew you did not have long left here, i sat down with you and gave you your last humbug mint both you and Hektor adored and you had your last peice of cucumber..you gazed into my eyes as you ate them i tried my best to fight back the tears..
Later on that day your tummy was so swollen and you could not move you just laid waiting to go to the vets you knew it was time for you to go and meet Hektor on Rainbow bridge,you were suffering yet you wagged your tail and greeted us as we rushed in to be with you, Elsa im so sorry i was not with you for the full day i wish i could turn back the clock and change that..
I never got to go to the vets with Hektor but i was allowed to come with you, that journey was heartbreaking it was so tense and sad in the car, we were all crying. We got to the vets and mum and dad got out the car but you refused to move, you nudged me and stared into my eyes just inches from my face you totaly refused to move, i was crying so badly i was scared to get out of the car but you would not move until i did..
I got out and walked with you, you went straight into the room with the vet and laid down, you were so calm you just wanted me not to cry you were just worried for me nothing else you forgot about your pain you put me first..
When the time came to let you go i could not stay in the room i had to get out i could not stand i was crying so much i did not want you to be stressed in those last moments..
im so sorry i did not stay i knew you understood because you let me go you just stayed calm, i sat outside of the room then a minute later i was called in to say goodbye by mum, you were just laid down looking peaceful just sleeping, i talked to you and held you told you it was okay now to be back with your brother Hektor that you could now run and play together and be free of pain..
Im sorry i was not with you all day Elsa im sorry i could not stay in the vets room i hope you heard me talking to you, i love you Elsa so much, i felt you around the home just like i did with Hektor and the same scent of roses filled the house..
I know you waited with Hektor for Beautie when she joined you at Rainbow bridge and i know you all play together free as can be..
Thankyou for being part of my life Thankyou for being you Thankyou for being the best sister ever..
One day we will meet again sweetheart but until then my Ellie girl you be free and happy with Hekky boy,Beaut and all our animal family small and big over Rainbow Bridge….
All my love,hugs,kisses and tickles Your sister Katie xxxxx