When I took you to MSU last week, I never EVER imagined you wouldn’t ever be coming back. The only thing I wanted to do was find out what was wrong so I could fix it. I certainly couldn’t believe it when they told me you were very sick….that your little belly was full of fluid and it hurt. I hated leaving you there for those few days, but I had to try and help you in every way that I could. Ashie..I am SOOOO sorry. Please know that we did everything we could….
I was hoping for some sort of miracle..that the doctor would come back and tell me they made a mistake…it wasn’t what they thought and some simple meds would help you. But that didn’t happen.
Never in my life did I think I would have to look deep into your eyes only to know that was the last time I ever would. It KILLED me, Ash….and it killed Roger, too, but it was very obvious you weren’t feeling well and were so uncomfortable. We just couldn’t let you keep feeling bad anymore…not for our sakes. It wouldn’t have been fair.
And now you aren’t in pain anymore…at all. You can smell the outside air anytime you want…lay in the sun anytime..and be happy! There is no 3 year old that will torment you! 🙂
But please know I miss you like crazy….beyond TOTAL reality. Thank you for everything you have added to my life….from the quirky things only YOU would do: knowing what "CHAIR" means, sitting in the tub just to do it, getting as far up on my shoulder as you could at night, begging to get into the bedroom when I would sleep in so you could wedge your way close to me….and they way your tail would lay on my face when you slept on my pillow…I will never EVER forget that wonderful smell you had and that soft fur.
You will ALWAYS be our Ashie the Kitty Cat….FOREVER. Love, Carrie, Roger, Court, and Trevor