My baby girl Zoey, who was a Miniature Pinscher, lived a short life at just a year and a half when she was hit by a car and died. I just happen to be outside trying to get her to come back inside when it happen so I seen it all. I was and still am devastated. It hasnt even been a week so I know some of the pain will fade with time but I just feel so lost without her.
She was my world. I got her from someone my husband knows who really didnt care about them he just wanted to get rid of them for the money. She was the runt of the litter and only weighed 1.6 lbs when I got her. When she passed away she was still only about 6 or 7 lbs. Because she was so small when I got her she was with me at all times if I wasnt at work she was with me. I carried her around in little handbags and then later in a small purse and etc. She eventually didnt really like it anymore so I stopped doing it but she looked so cute!!!!
There was good and bad as with most animals. The bad things were minor but sometimes would drive me crazy, however now I would take all those bad things back 10 times worse if I could just have her back. I miss her sooooo much! She was trained to pee and poop on potty pads and was ok on with it for the most part but sometimes she could be a brat and poop somewhere she shouldnt. It drove me crazy to have to clean up poop when I knew she could use the pad when she wanted to. She also loved to sit and stare at you when you ate and I have always HATED that but I couldnt break her of it. I would try to get her to go somewhere else while we ate but she wouldnt. She was the type of dog that HAD to be around someone at all times and if she wasnt she hated it. A lot of times and I still dont know why she would try to eat our hair. She would always climb up on you and want to lay on your chest/shoulder and she would always try to eat our hair. It was weird but it drove most of us crazy however I sure do miss it now!
The good things are what I miss the most because she was such a presence in my life and no without her there I feel so empty. When she was home all day while we were gone she would go crazy when we come through the door. She would jump (and she could jump pretty high) until you paid attention to her. With me she was getting to where if I put my hands out she would jump high enough to reach my hands so I didnt have to bend down and pick her up. When I would get her she would love all over me, kissing and licking my whole face. Then you would put her down and she would follow me everywhere I went. If I went and sat down she would come sit on my lap, beside my lap or her favorite spot was to lay on my chest with her head laying on my shoulder. She also would lay on my stomach with her head on my chest looking up at me. I miss that sooooo much! She also always slept with me and the last week I have not been able to sleep hardly at all. Sometimes she would drive us crazy trying to get under our blankets and curl up next to us but most of the time I loved it as much as she did and I miss it a lot! She would even be under my covers all curled up and sleeping and I would get up to do something and she would have to get up to and follow me where ever I went. She was always around us and its so sad to be sitting around watching TV now and her not be on or near me. Also I realized last night that when I went to bed I always yelled for her to follow me because she slept with me and our bedroom was upstairs and there was two small flights of steps up to my bedroom and she would dart ahead of me and get to the top and turn around and look for me with those eyes saying ..come on mom you take forever!!!! She actually did that where ever I was going .even just walking from the living room to the kitchen she would always turn around and see where I was. I tripped over her many time and got mad but now I would trip a thousand times to have her back.
The one thing that probably drove me the craziest was what actually got her killed and I tried soooooo hard to break her of it but nothing I did worked. It was winter when we got her so we tried her to potty pads and she was in the house all the time, never took her outside. Well when spring finally come around she realized what the outside was all about because we lived in a trailer at the time and would leave the door open and put up a gate .she learned that if she was fast enough she could dart out the door before anyone could bend down to stop her and if you didnt watch out she would do this all the time. I finally got to where anytime I opened the door I would see where she was and make sure she wasnt anywhere near the door. My kids however was not that good about it so once in awhile she would get out and at first when we were in the trailer she would stay up near the trailer, we had a little bit of a driveway before you would be in the road but as time went along she got a little braver or dumber not sure which but she finally realized if she went down the driveway she found a road that went way up one side and way up the other side and there was these things that went down it that she could chase and try to eat yea she learned how to chase cars and try to eat their tires. For months and months when she would get out she would then go start to the road and wait for a car to come by. There were many times I thought I was going to lose her. I tried spanking her, I tried putting her on the leash after she did it, I tried putting her in a cage and etc. I could never figure anything out that worked.
Well then we moved to a big house with a road almost right beside the house so I tried to enforce in everyone how important it was to make sure she did not get loose. When she did not only did she chase cars she would not come back to you for NOTHING. She came back to the door when she was ready to and not a second before. Well when we moved in the house I started taking her for walks up and down the road hoping that she would get used to cars passing us. And when a car would come at first she would go crazy and try to chase and stuff but I would just pull on her lease and talk to her and tell her no and etc. She got to where she really didnt even care or so I thought when a car went by, but guess that was only when she was on a leash that she didnt care because sad to say but last Thursday July 21, 2011 she accidently got out of the house and while I tried to get her to come to me and get out of the road she ended up getting hit and I was right there to watch it. I will NEVER forget that day and I miss her soooooo much. I feel like I lost my best friend and I wish she could come back. I have had other animals that have died but for some reason my Zoey was just precisious to me and I will love her always and forever!!!!!
Anyone that has lost and animal and has not read the poem The Rainbow Bridge needs to read it. It is really a good poem and though I am not easily comforted right now but the thought of what the poem say being true is somewhat comforting.
RIP Zoey .enjoy Heaven until I get there and we can be together again!
Love always ..Momma Lott