Dear Daisy, You came into my life two weeks after my Darling dog Beautie passed over to Rainbow bridge,I had always wanted to be a mummy to a guineapig and here you were!!..
You came to me with Poppy your sister and you were both so little just babies but with big appetites!!..
You had pure white long hair with little brown patches either side of your face and beautiful big dark sparkling eyes..
You and Poppy adored each other and i loved hearing you play together and weeting out for your veggies!, you gained some more Guinea sisters and brothers who needed homes to but you always remained boss!..
Not long after summer started ending i noticed you were struggling to pull your back legs up to walk and you were getting a little thinner..it could not have been old age you were not even three yet..
i kept an eye on you but you got worse so i rushed you to the vets..nobody could decide what was the matter so it was a case of trying different treatments..
Nothing worked and you became less able to walk, i nursed you day and night you even slept by my bed each night so i could keep an eye on you..
It got to the point where you could not walk at all, each leg had given up and you got thinner but you just kept on going..
asked for your food and veggies each morning and night still tried to eat them yourself as well as me feeding them to you, you still liked your water and carrot juice and still liked to visit your guinea family..
After lots of trips to the vets and no answers i realised nothing was working, you kept on fighting despite not being able to walk you lived in your carrier and went everywhere with me..
you sat with me for cuddles and i talked to you for ages as you gazed into my eyes ‘silent talking’ back to me..
Then almost three months later you started to show struggling to breath and had runny noses..i knew then i could not let you suffer in anyway at all.. those last few trips to the vets were tearful i knew it was time to let you go..
I sat in the dim lit bedroom with you laid next to me in your little blankets..
you were so small and fragile and was drifting in and out of sleep, i could hear the television in the other room quietly it was all so quiet and calm.. i still prayed that you would respond to your new medicine but you never did..
I lay crying gently stroking you telling you i loved you, you nuzzled my hand to tell me you loved me.. you had your last salad leafs and some nuggets then went to sleep in your carrier by the side of me..
The next morning i awoke to find you watching me but struggling to breath, i rushed you to the vets and knew i had to let you go..
as i laid you in your blankets on the table the vet said i should stroke you and talk to you, i placed my hands either side of you and told you you are my good little girl and it was okay..
as soon as i said that you went yourself..
you just needed me to tell you it was okay to go..
The journey home was silent i just watched out of the window,the rain had stopped and sun was shining again..
That night i had a dream, in the dream i looked out of the window and saw a big rainbow appear out of grey clouds..
then in the dream i was in the car being driven along and you were sat in my arms but you were able to walk..
you climbed up me and i felt your little feet on my skin,then i looked out of the window to see a huge rainbow appear again, the weather was odd it was raining,cloudy,blue sky and very sunny..
then in my dream as we were driving along we had got to the end of our road to go home when i looked up again to see a huge orange,red and pink beautiful rainbow..
i knew it was you telling me you loved me and saying Thankyou.. but there was a miracle to come..
The next day when i awoke i sat and thought about the dream i felt so warm inside, i got up and looked out of the window only to see a big rainbow appear out of the clouds!, then a short while later while in the car i felt a tickling on my hands and up my arms and i knew it was you telling me you were okay..
then when i turned to look out of the window there was the second rainbow shining brightly! not only that it was raining,cloudy,blue sky and sunny!, then the total miracle to it all was just as we got on the end of our road to go back home i looked up and there was a huge orange,red and pink beautiful rainbow glowing right above the car! Your daddy stopped the car while i just sat in amazement looking up!..
I could not believe everything from my dream was true! that it was all signs from you to tell me you were okay now and you loved me and thankyou..
In those next few days i had my lows where i missed you so much, and it was time to put up the christmas decorations but i felt so sad without you so lonely and so guilty for doing the decorations..
i just sat surrounded by them in tears, i had just put out a brand new set of lights next to me i could clearly see them they had never been out of the box before, nothing was on them at all.. yet as soon as i said i just could not do this, i had the feeling to look to my side..
on the lights right in the centre on top of them was a big fluffy pure white feather!.. this to me is very symbolic it means sooo much and i just cried with happiness..their was nothing with feathers in the house and i was the only person in the room to!..
A few days later while getting ready to walk the dog Vinnie (he nursed you too) i was crying i was missing giving you a morning cuddle..then out of complete no where a white feather floated from the ceiling down right in front of my face into my hand! It made me so happy and warm inside i just knew it was another sign from you asking me to cheer up..
Thankyou so much for all of these amazing signs you gave me Daisy, and for the many more… You were such a fighter even the vet said you were " a tough little cookie " you just kept on and on as log as you could and it was for me..
im so sorry for your suffering and im sorry i did not manage to do more for you,from everything i studied and evidence i put together i knew it was a muscle wasteing disorder you had suffered from..
so tiny yet you had to suffer like that..im so sorry for it..
you will always be my little sweetheart and Poppy loves you to,You are free now with all our other animals over the Rainbow Bridge, Thankyou for being in my life, Thankyou for being so brave, Thankyou for being you..
I love you Daisy and i know Beautie looks after you for me and i love her so much to, One day we will meet up again but until then i will always remember you my Daisy Maisy..
All my love,hugs,kisses and tickles, Mummy Katie xxxxxx