was going through a hard time in my life and felt so alone.. felt unloved and lost.. then along came beautiful you..
I saw you sat in the sunshine you were glowing golden your beautiful German shepherd colours,your big brown eyes shining like stars,you wagged your tail straightaway and rested your nose in my hand..
i knew i was taking you home my special girl..
We bonded straightaway nobody could break us apart, you guarded me from harm you were such a brave dog despite your failing health, your spine was slowly fuseing up which meant your legs would not work properly yet you just kept on going..
I tried so hard to convince the vets they were wrong with what was wrong with you i begged for tests but it was all done to late..
The morning came where i knew there was a chance you would not be coming home..
you were going for an x-ray on your spine and if nothing could be done i had to accept to let you go in peace let you out of your suffering.. You could no longer go on walks you could only play ball by me rolling it to you while you caught it between your paws..but you just kept on trying..kept on fighting..
That morning i knew deep inside you were going to Rainbow bridge because you walked properly for the first time in months, you went round to each of us wagging your tail saying your goodbyes then waited by the door..
You knew it was time to go to play with all the other animals over Rainbow bridge and you wanted out of the suffering..you told me the bst way you could, " mum please no more "..
On the journey to the vets you sat in the car on your pink blanket watching out the window so happily, there was a calm in the car but i hurt so bad inside.. we got into the vets and you went yourself straight to the nurse ready and waiting, you even knew where to go.. you looked at an area near the door crying and wagging your tail..
i could not see what you were looking at but i knew an Angel was waiting for you.. I held you in my arms and told you I love you and that you were so brave..
i did not want to say goodbye but i had to..
You walked away with the nurse and did not look back, you knew if you did i would feel so guilty.. A few hours later i sat and waited for that phonecall..
it seemed so long i was hurting so bad.. it finaly came and i was faced with the decision to let you go while you were already asleep, i was in shock i was numb but i said yes..i could not let you suffer any longer..
I just walked to the stairs and dropped, it was as though my heart had been torn out my breath taken from me..
then came the tears i cried for so long but then started to understand you were now free to play,run,jump be happy be ..
Baby girl i will never forget you, one day we will meet up and i will make up for any lost time with you, Thankyou for being my guardian Thankyou for making me whole Thankyou for being you…
You be free, you be Beautie..
All my love,hugs,kisses and tickles, Your mummy Katie xxxxxxxxxxxxx