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Written by Lisa
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I will never be the same now that you're gone. Holding you in my arms while you went away forever is the most cherished and painful memory I will ever have. I am so sorry for this. But your kidneys were failing darling and I couldn't watch your quality of life deteriorate over time. I am so greatful for the month I had with you even though I had to give you needles and medicine. But when you stopped eating again baby, I just couldn't continue to force feed (I really know how hard that was on you) you. I prayed that it would just be a couple days of giving you those awful tasting appetite stimulants again and all would be well but they weren't helping and that was when I had decided that rather than hoping for the best this time I would let you go to Rainbow Bridge and be with some friends. I feel so guilty but I try to forgive myself and know that you wouldn't want to continue either with pokes and pills and yucky food. You were my world and I always will pray that I gave you the best little 5 years you could've had. I ache for you Tigre, I cry for you with your baby blanket cuddled up with me in bed at night. Please forgive me. I love you with all my heart and I pray every night you're resting in peace with God. I can't wait to see you again. Hugs and kisses.
Mommy Lisa
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