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My Beautiful Special Little Amber.. |
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Written by Katie
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Dear
Amber,
Your mummy Willow only just passed away and now you have gone to be with her, You had been poorly for a long time but kept on fighting.. In the last week together you went everywhere with me..i had already nursed you over the months as your legs began to stop working and our bond got stronger and stronger..In that last week i would just sit and watch your lovely little face as you went to sleep next to me in your home made 'AmberMobile' with all your little blankets.. We would sit together each night before bed with a litlle lullabye's playing gently in the background as i nursed you to sleep..you purred with love and comfort..something i your Grandma Daisy used to do when i nursed her before she passed away..I knew you did not have long left your eyes lost a bit of sparkle everyday yet you just kept on eating your best veggies and you get tummy upsets but i could not starve you, i had to change your food but you were not used to it so you woke me during the night crying because you were hungry..im so sorry you were hungry..i sat up with you and fed you some carrot and tempted you to try your new food which you gladly took gazeing lovingly at me.. I laid you next to in the bed wrapped in one of my tops and stroked you as you settled down enough to get you comfy again in your bed next to me.. It was my birthday on the 17th of february but i knew not to leave the house i had a feeling to stay with you..that evening i had to rush you to the vets you had a very upset tummy, i got you medicine and you seemed so much better over those next few days.. But then on the 19th i know you were going the sparkle was leaving your eyes..i sat up with you strokeing you next to me on the bed just asking the angels to let you go at home with me and let it be with no suffering..you went into a deep sleep next to me..the next morning i woke early to find you breathing fast and your heart out of beat, i did not panic this time i took you downstairs and you woke and called for your veggies.. but then as son as i laid you down to give you them your head just slowy dropped down and your eyes faded i tried to give you a peice of pepper and you could only manage to put your teeth on it and you managed to drink a tiny bit of water..you were barely still with me but you tried, im so sorry you never got to have your veggies im so so sorry.. i took you in your blanket to sit down in a quiet room..i cradled you and spoke to you telling you how much i love you and how brave you were..then the stroke started you went into fits it was so frightning to see because i just wanted to keep you calm but now i know you would not have known any different than just going to sleep.. after 10 minutes you held on your heart kept beating so it was time to get you to the vets as fast as possible..in the car i kept you close to me as you had more fits but slowly they went less..we got you to the vets fast and i asked the vet to help you go out of your suffering and be free..i held you spoke to you sroked you, it took a little longer for you to pass away because your circulation was poor..after a couple of minutes i could not feel your heart beat i asked the vet to listen to make sure and he said you had gone.. i did not want to leave you there..the vet covered you up in your little blanket..i had to say goodbye..in the car i just sat in shock i had only just lost your mummy suddenly but i knew she had gone so she could meet up with you at rainbow bridge..your mummy was with your grandma Daisy aswell and all our other animal family big and small..now your free you can run again you can eat as much food as you like and you can eat your best hay..I brought your little casket home yesterday and placed it with Beauty your doggie sister and with Daisys your Guinea grandma and with Willow your Guinea mummy... I have got the little videos of you still where you are gently sleeping in your best cosy blankets that your nana Val got for you (thankyou nana Val..)with your lullabyes playing and me strokeing you.. Baby Amber i will always miss you..you be free and play and run something you had not been able to do here..one day we will meet at he rainbow bridge all of us together again.. Thankyou for the signs you have given me to say you are okay now.. I will always love you my special little girl..Be free now my darling..We all miss you so much but dont you worry we just want you to be happy and free again.. Until we meet again Sweetheart, Your Bigger Mummy,Your daddy, Your doggie brother Vinnie and all your Guinea pig Family..send loads of love and kisses and hugs and lullabyes.... Be Free xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
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